My week

has just been one really long week. I feel as if the universe is working against me this week. Well, I feel as if the universe has been working against me every week. I love TX State and being on my own and what not. I feel as if I'm doing pretty decent with classes, and whenever I get overly stressed I just listen to music or whatever. But I feel as if I haven't found my place. I've always felt like that. I watch relationships and friendships and see people interacting with other people, and while I'm able to do that, I feel as if its easy to forget me. Tonight, for instance, I was with a group of people and not one of them noticed when I left. I feel as if I'm fading from people's lives and I've had enough of that. That's not how I want to feel. Like something extra in the background. Its hard enough to fit in at our age, but I feel as if its something different. I've always been socially shy, not awkward, but shy. And I just feel as if no one would notice if I faded away into nothing.

I know we're supposed to blog about the class, so I'll do that at a later date. I just needed a place to write anonymously.