You Are Beautiful

The popular Christina Aguilera jam has been my anthem for awhile now, and this week especially. For some odd reason since coming in for the Spring semester my self-esteem has been at an all time low. I avoid mirrors and wearing form fitting clothing in efforts of repairing this lost confidence. However, I know that this effort to repair this loss isn't the way. But what is? I have been dealing with the same insecurities my whole life! Why do they keep sneaking up on me again to make my days less enjoyable? I never have felt that being beautiful was so important than I have here at Texas State. I keep fishing for perfection on the outside, but I am pretty sure that my issues with body image are all on the inside. As college students we are too busy to look beneath the surface and dig a little deeper in efforts of getting past the way someone looks (I am guilty, I don't know why the hell I'm complaining) and with texting and IMing and Twittering and Facebooking, when does our generation ever have a face to face conversation that doesn't involve our prettiest pictures representing who we want to be online? I believe Social Networking sites are amazing tools for keeping up with people, but they also have made us more superficial than ever. You must look beautiful at all times because you never know who may have a camera and post a bad picture of you online and then the guy you like will see it and think GROSS and you will never get to talk about how both of your passions and dreams all because you thought it was just going to be a fun night with a couple girlfriends without judgement so you skipped out on the normal getting ready routine and this devastating picture was taken. Anyways, enough rambling. Just remember You are Beautiful no matter what they say. (I am saying this to myself, and to you!)